Dreaming

So, dear blog. It's been a while. Anyways.


I'm beginning to dream again. I can't quite decide whether this is good or bad.

It is good because it means I will reach for the stars and beyond, filling my life with awe and wonder. But at the same time it is bad because It often feels like I have wildly unfounded dreams of grandiose ideas that I will never achieve.

I am torn. Just like my heart is torn.


In which I rant about my (lack of) love life.

I recently split up with my girlfriend and I can't decide between "mourning" or trying to get her back. The former won't do anything and the latter is pointless but I cannot help but think that if I just showed her how much I loved her she might take me back. We broke up as friends and on a mutual "understanding" that it wasn't going to work. That said I still wish I'd grabbed both her hands, stared straight into her deep eyes and told her how much I loved her, told her that I loved her with every fibre of my being and that I would move mountains just to be with her.




That said I am, for now, revelling in a quiet sort of happiness that I have found within myself, within my friends, within my music and within life. I am not running around like a madman and am not always full of energy and "fire" like I usually am but I am contended (for the most part) in my life and I cannot complain all that much.

That is all for now.

xx

Song of the day: Katy Perry - Firework

Quote of the day: Mal: "We're not gonna die. We can't die, Bendis. You know why? Because we are so...very...pretty. We are just too pretty for God to let us die."